Close my eyes and they burn
Searing with images, moments, memories
That could have been, that never happened
Why? I can only ask myself.
I beg my mind to bend over backward
Think how did I not see this coming.
I knew it was too good to be true
It wouldn’t last forever.
Maybe I convinced myself
Lulled myself into this delusion.
Stomach churning, caving in
from the weight of that sucker punch
that no one intended.
That I got fooled into by no one but myself,
That’s why it hurts most.
Someone you love, almost more than yourself,
That you can’t blame them.
It just hurts too more.
What was once months of plans and dreams
Suddenly materialize only in tears
Streaming down my cheeks
And splattering on the ground.